This is Me Now — Adaptability is the Key to Survival

This is me now

A New Me

I used to have a personality, or at least, a personality I liked. Back then, I woke up with a purpose, a sense of what I wanted to do each day.

Unfortunately, this is no longer the case. I have been depressed for so long I feel like I’m a totally different person from when I was “happy”. Things I used to like to do now feels like it requires a monumental amount of effort to accomplish. My mind just works differently now.

Needless to say, I don’t like this “new” me. If only I can go back to who I was… to the “me” I actually liked.

And so here I am, desperately clinging on to happier times, and feeling at a lost as to why I can’t just get “myself” back.

Reality Check

Here’s the hard truth I’ve had to swallow: the “me” I once was is gone. And no amount of wishing, replaying old memories, or running from the present is going to change that.

I can either spend the rest of my life mourning her, letting the weight of that loss paralyze me further, or I can start afresh and accept this new me.